thoughts.

haven’t been blogging for the longest time, but for me, this is pretty common since it takes the right mood and enough effort for me to do so.

i tend to blog alot when i experience sadness or disappointment in my relationship, and i’m glad that this time it is not for the same purpose. i was just thinking that different people mature and grow from different incidents and experiences. for me, it would have to be in the relationship arena.

knowing him has been the most wonderful thing to happen to me so far because more than bringing me happiness, he plays a really pivotal role in my shaping to become a better person. he is not the typical sweet, romantic boyfriend out of a romance movie, but he is definitely down-to-earth and very real. real in the sense that he always brings me down to reality, with his critique of my “wayward ways and thoughts” like my pride, my selfishness, my stubborness and what have you. but of course this does often become a source of quarrel because it is hard to take criticism, especially coming from someone who is supposed to dote on you and treat you like a princess (just like in movies, right?).

but during my moments of solitude, i think about all that he has done and is to me and i really appreciate him for all that. just 1 month into our 2nd year together, i do feel that our relationship has come a long way, and so have i. he says that he loves who i am more now, as compared to the girl that he first knew and i think i understand what he means. i have really grown and matured alot, through all the ups and downs in our relationships, and of course him bringing me into his spiritual world which im slowly opening up to.

in a bid to love each other more and reduce the frequency of quarrels, we have started this daily appreciation routine where we both take turns to tell each other what we appreciate the other for. while it seems rather mechanical, i must say its working out very well, with both of us feeling much more positive and appreciated (: although it may be too early to tell if we are the ones for each other, im really happy for where we are heading, together in this relationship.

faith has always been a problem for me in this relationship, but this is something that i have been working hard to have. our relationship is going to reach a new chapter as i will be flying off to Germany for close to 6 months soon. while i am apprehensive of the unknown, i am much more confident now because i believe that this is a trial that will only make our relationship stronger when we get through it. and i do feel it is necessary to go through it because we often appreciate and cherish things more after being put to test. i know i’m going to miss him alot but well, sometimes all we need is a little more faith in our hearts (:

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